Disappointment

Of all the emotions, this one hurts the heart the most.

It's not like anger which is a superficial emotion, similar to a hurricane that loses velocity over time. No, this is worse than anger

It hurts. It burns. 

Mostly because it was a shock to the system I believe. 

One wasn't expecting to feel this way. Maybe because we believed that the outcome that would trigger this emotion would never occur. We willed it not to. We hoped. We were so focused on the end goal not willing to accept anything less than the desired result.

But life doesn't work that way. Neither does human nature. So we are forced to experience disappointment in its purest form. It's that ball of cement in your stomach that makes a person feel physically ill. Sadness, disappointment's friend, also features here. Once the initial shock wears off, we are left unhappy, and possibly a tiny bit vengeful towards the person that caused us to feel this way. We want to hurt them like they hurt us so they know what it feels like.

You see, disappointment is the gateway to the other (more negative) emotions.

At some point though, we have to pick up the shattered pieces and go on with life. As much as we are hurting, we cannot let it oppress us else we'll never move forward. We need to, for our sakes as well as the offending party's. Be mad, be disappointed, be every kind of emotion, because you are entitled to feel like that. Then we need to accept the problem and figure out an acceptable solution. Time is a key factor. No-one is able to forgive and forget in mere hours. Eventually it hurts less and less.

Thereafter, the emotional gauntlet has been run, and life returns to a semblance of normality.

If you're wondering what brought on this post, my mom (who quit smoking 6 months ago) started again. 

There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love.
Martin Luther King, Jr.